[what it takes to be an actor]

Some of the key points of being an actor are Honesty, Flexibility, and Vulnerability. These are some of the most difficult virtues for the average person to uphold. Who wants to ever tell you that they lied/cheated, have unbreakable habits, or are afraid (of anything)? An Actor. Is it because they get paid to do it? Not always. Is it because they get a sick rush from putting themselves out there like no other? Probably.

The full story: I got rejected. Again. And in a sick way, I laugh at it. Do I really get a rush off of knowing that someone wants to have nothing to do with me? Why did I even pursue it? Why play with my hair, trying oh so desparately to be seductive? Why think for a moment that a mind will falter if I allow my bossom to graze its surface ‘by accident’? Why blatantly thrust myself or smile “knowingly” when the smile that’s returned knows the truth [it ain't happenin']? Why persist, sans pride, in honesty ["well... you know I like you"], flexibility ["so... that's an *option*"], and vulnerability [unquotable]?

Because I’m an Actor. And I got me some jumbo kahones.